Candombe-808-02 WORK IN PROGRES by dahveed
notes:
- field recording of candombe beats from feria in el bolson
- 808 kicks / synth programmed on iPod using nanostudio while walking around
- tempo: 115.4 if anyone wants any loops from this
Thought Catalog published some of my notes on having a baby.
I think sometimes all ppl want is to be able to tell their stories, over and over.
Today we went to the embassy for Micael’s passport.
The guy at window 14 asked me why I was in Argentina.
Why are you in a place?
How can you ever answer that?
You can say because of this or that.
Because of a girl, a job, because you’re going to school, because this is where you’re from.
But none of it is really true, is it?
Aren’t you there because you’re there?
What right does anyone have to ask you “why are you here?”
Not out of interest or to establish some kind of connection, but as an interrogation, questioning in order to catalog or register you.
The only response seems like “why are you here?”
The agent wanted me to hacer el boludo¹, to say something non-offensive, non-threatening, something that had to do with work, or whatever else would make it easy to catalog me as just another privileged American moron.
I told him “I’m a travel writer.”
On the way to the embassy, in a taxi going down 9 de Julio, I thought for a second I saw a condor.
I knew it couldn’t be, that it was a hawk (a carancho) of some kind.
But what matters is that for a second I could “see” condors in Buenos Aires.
Like someday it could happen, they could fly over 9 de Julio after it’s all melted back into to whatever it will become.
If anyone were left then, do you think they’d ask the condors why they were there?
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¹ – to act like a typical moron
Shade tarps hung over the Feria. El Bolson maxed out with kids from Buenos Aires. High school age, 16, 17, sometimes younger. Backpacks leaning on restaurant walls, table legs. Something about being able to drink and travel during adolescence as a part of your culture and not as somehow fucking up or ‘taking time off’ or ‘finding oneself.’ The absence of camps. Life lived out on the streets. Long lines at the ATMs pushing towards the shade. A thick-assed policewoman walking quickly in combat boots. The cooler at Los Girasoles empty except for Isenbeck. Waitresses and bartenders at Jauja, Hummus, Roberto at the verduleria, everyone moving in slowmo. Back at the barrio, all the younger men with our shirts off. Cutting grass and fixing cars in the morning. The brightness of tin roofs. Nobody out between 12 and 4. The skin from the Colques’ New Years cordero still flayed up in the shed. A cat flattened out in the shade of their truck, kittens nursing. Waiting till late to go on runs. Grasshoppers in the retamas, bees on the Hypericum. Where the trail meets San Martin, a couple of Gauchos asking if I’d seen a horse. Dense dust rising from car tires. Hosing down garden and self post-run. Kale, strawberries, tomatoes, lettuce visibly taller. Evening drives to the river. On the way through town, a woman with breasts loose in a sun dress shoveling dog-strewn garbage. Water in the Azul warm enough that you don’t gasp anymore. Low flow, the snowpack nearly melted out. Learning to recognize the rocks that have fossils. At sunset, the wetlands full of dragonflies. A daughter three, a newborn son. Something switching to minor-key when folding up the blanket and walking to the car. Back at home, opening all windows and doors. Dinner, 10:30 pm at the earliest. Hours later, the house finally cool, everyone asleep. Curtains pushing in from the west. Sound of the river across the runway. Dogs barking again, then a clopping sound. A horse running towards the fields.
On the way back home it’s getting dark and I’m walking by la casa de los colque. They were here before this place started becoming barrio. They’re the only family that still works the land, the chacras. The house is all unfinished block and concrete and shit just falling apart. Some of windows are taped up sheets of plastic. Then my eye catches this glint and I see them again in a little storage area: rows and rows and rows of soccer trophies.
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